Avoidance...

I think I have been avoiding posting on this blog, because I feel like there is nothing in me worth blogging about. I am definitely experiencing culture shock.... though I should feel pretty good, since its taken two months. However I have felt so frustrated today to the point of almost tears. I keep on reminding myself that God has a purpose for everything and I am here for a reason. He has chosen me to be here.

I hate being a downer debbie, but seriously sometimes life is really hard. There are times in a day when I feel like I have things under control, and then the Philippines throws me a curve ball and I have to try and figure that one out.

For the last week my classroom's air con has been out, and this just makes everything harder. By the end of the day I am exhausted and have absolutely no energy left. I feel like I have given my all to these kids and then at the end of the day I am left tired and sweaty. There is no way I want to prepare for the next day especially when there is no relief from the heat and humidity.

I also went to the bank today to pay my rent, like every month, and they had told me I could pay with US checks (since my landlord will only accept dollars and not pesos). When I got there to pay they told me "sorry mam' you can't use that check here" AGH! I had my parents specially send these checks over here to the Phils because the bank told me I could pay with checks! yikes.

Also the car I have been using has broken down... so I can't go anywhere unless someone else drives me. This is extremely frustrating after being independent for quite some time and then being dependent on those around you can be extremely humbling.

Ok well now I'm just venting, but if you could remember me in your prayers. I am so frustrated, hot, and overwhelmed by the amount of school work I need to do. I know that the Lord is good and He will take care of me, but I feel as if I am a fish out of water...